When it rains, it pours...

Well... I'm sorry I was in such a bad mood in my last post. I know why! I haven't been feeling well. I have a rip roaring kidney infection. Big time. I don't have the usual symptom that normal people do. It doesn't hurt to go to the bathroom. So I don't have anyway to catch a simple bladder infection. I don't know there is something wrong until my sides start hurting. That's your kidney's. I've only ever had this happen probably 1 or 2 times my whole life. So it's not like I think about that this is something that could be wrong with me. I was just really, really tired and cranky. I just kind of hurt everywhere. I went to the temple on Tuesday with a friend and then again with my Mom on Saturday. I was in such a bad mood on Saturday, I figured that going to the temple would help. We have been waiting and waiting for something positive to happen on the house. I wanted all the blessing we could get. I had wonderful time with my mom. Sitting up is WAY better than laying down. My back hurts so bad when I lay down. I just want to throw-up I hurt so bad. Anyway, I went to the doctor and she wanted to give me Levaquin. No, no, no.... I'm very allergic to Levaquin... so I'm not taking the best antibiotic for a kidney infection, but I have what is best for me. With my foot, the infection, my headaches. I'm a mess.
I really just want to sleep. But it hurts to lay down.
On another note, I'm sure most people know about John. Well, it's been a little more than a year since we first meet. But it was a year ago this week that he came to visit me here in San Antonio. It's been a tough week just for that reason alone. Then to add being sick on top of it. I'm just not myself. Fortunately, I spend some with Jill yesterday. It helps to be able to talk it out. Remembering that he tricked me. I wasn't to blame for what he did to me. I know that I am loved and will never be hurt by those who truly care for me. It's days and weeks like this that I really miss my dad. I could really use a hug.