Well... I've just been looking at pictures of my great- neices. Wow... I'm that old. They are beautiful... my family has truly been blessed. Two little spirits that we get to love and cherish. Unfortunately, one of them may be taken away by her mother. Only time will tell what will happen. We do get a sweet little angel that brightens our days... "K" is going to be a year old on Easter Day. Her lack of hair doesn't stop her from rubbing her head like she does have hair... she's so funny.
Today has been soooo long. I've been thinking... wondering... praying over what is to come next? My dizziness has been constant for almost a year now. So does that mean that I give up hope that it is going to get any better than this and just accept that this is it??? Do I keep fighting and keep being disappointed when things don't get better??? I don't seem to have an in-between stage. If I just accept this and give up... I'm giving up (a total taboo that I have learned in my family) or if I keep fighting and don't accept that this is just my life (then I'm in denial). I don't want this as my life. I hate being at such an altered state (dizzy-wise).... at times walking is too hard. Driving is out of the question. So now what??? Accept it??? Keep fighting????
Well... this is me ... still wondering... still praying.
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